Then and Now

by Wendy J. Dunn

 

JOAN OF ARC

(Written at sixteen).

 

Today I die

Today I die

I remember

when I first heard them

in the green meadows

of my home,

 

St Catherine

beckoned me,

Saint Michael and Saint Margaret told me,

‘Drive the English out,

drive them out from France.’

They said destiny chose me

They said God chose me

I, Jeanne,

unschooled Jeanne

A peasant’s daughter

a maid

with no touch of man

 

Why chose me?

A girl to lead armies,

A girl to hold a lance

A girl to command men

Why me?

Why did it have to be me?

 

 

I love the Lord,

I love his saints,

I love my land

But I am afraid

So afraid

For today,

today I burn at the stake

 

I am but nineteen.

 

my heart beats

against my chest

like a caged dove

beating its wings

I never thought of death

when I heard voices that day

 

The saints gave me light

a new life

But it’s dark now

I don’t want to die

 

They’ve come now to lead me away;

Goodbye France, goodbye life;

Goodbye dungeon,

last earthly home

My hopes and dreams

are all behind me now.

 

 

I walk,

my head held high

the cheerless crowd

stare at me,

their thoughts

fly at me

So, this is Jeanne d’Arc?

Or Joan of Arc

As the English say

Is she a witch

Or a saint?

Soon my death will tell

 

Soldiers tie me

to the stake

A thousand memories

crowd my mind

Then the fire,

the awful agony

of dying

I smell my burning flesh

I scream out

the name of God

 

It comes to me

why I must die so young

 

 

I ride at the head

of the battlefield

I ride for the freedom of France

I ride for home

following light

so bright

into eternity.

 

 

JEANNE D’ARC

   (Written decades later).

   History

   must be understood

   in its context

What did I know

at sixteen?

Less than I know now

but still a lot

History was always

my learning fount

 

Jeanne d’Arc

Drew me

the teenager me in

This young French woman

dead at the hand

of men

She wore armour

And commanded even a king

But when she lost her battle

they hurled her

into prison a maid

but English soldiers soon

rectified that

 

Rape:

too long

a cultural measure

for returning women

to their place.

 

Jeanne d’Arc:

a visionary

a freedom fighter

willing to die

for France to win its war

that’s what we remember now.

 

These things happened

in history.

But I cannot believe

she deserved her end

 

   History

  must be understood

  in its context

It was not unusual

for a woman in these times

a woman refusing silence

to be feared

or believed a witch

 

Or for a woman

to be raped

or to die

tied to a stake

their flesh

eaten by flames

 

War is War

those who live by the sword

die by the sword

so they say

   History

   Must be understood

   in its context

The past has its excuse

that it is the past

 

I think of all the women

then and now

killed by men

raped by men

(a vile way

some men have

to remind women

of their true power)

I think of thousands dead

because we repeat

the failures of the past

 

I think it is well past time

To learn from history

Surely we are capable of that?

Believe in Heaven?

that’s no reason

to make Hell on Earth.


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